Do you feel lost, stuck, scared, confused, frustrated, &/or exhausted in your life?
Those heavy emotions may affect only one area of your life, like your job or your living situation.
Or they may affect multiple areas.
Either way, if you are feeling that angsty heaviness & discomfort then you are who I want to connect with.
That's because, in many ways, you are the same as me.
For around 15 years now, I have been running scared in my life. I have felt dissatisfied with my jobs, finances, relationships, housing, &, ultimately, with myself.
Sometimes the pain was mildish & I could continue to skate by.
Other times it festered into full-blown depressions & knocked me out mentally/emotionally/physically.
The pain that shows up when you are living a life that no longer serves you is a wonderful thing (even though it hurts like hell) because it's your personal alarm system going off, alerting you that something needs your attention.
Unfortunately for me, I never knew exactly what I needed to change . . . well, at least when I was younger that was true.
As I got older, however, I knew what I needed to change but I didn't know how to do it without spinning my wheels & feeling hopelessly lost the entire time.
You know when you hear stories about a person who only dates abusive partners?
They date some shitty partner for awhile, finally get fed up enough to do the hard work of leaving them, only to settle down with the same type of partner again - & the cycle continues.
Well that's me, except instead of dating losers, my cycle has me working menial jobs, making enough money to get by but never much more, always having to live with roommates, always keeping myself underemployed, having grand dreams & goals that live in my head but never finding the courage & drive to actually work on them, self-sabotaging any progress I do manage to make, self-sabotaging my romantic relationships, & subconsciously doing everything I can to make sure my life remains unchanged year after year.
Also, running! I run away from things that challenge me & make me feel uncomfortable & unsure. I run from living situations & relationships when they start to feel stale & I chase the newness that comes from the honeymoon phase of a new place to live or a new partner.
That has been my cycle for 1 & a half decades & I am done with it!
I know, at some level, it was all necessary & relevant for my growth & evolution but it no longer serves me.
I am a rather stubborn individual when it comes to my cycle & pattern because, subconsciously, I need it to feel safe.
Any outsider could have easily seen the mess I was keeping myself stuck in, but they couldn't pay me to change my mind.
Just like trying to tell the person dating an abusive partner that they can do so much better for themself.
The only thing that has saved me from continuing on the soul-crushing journey of remaining lost in my comfort zone are the pain & suffering that make up my emotional alarm system. They have forced me to grow.
If you have made it onto this page & read down this far, then I am guessing your alarm system is going off & the pain is feeling pretty overwhelming.
Please know that you are not broken or wrong or deficient.
You are simply resisting the natural growth of your life.
When you push against or ignore your evolution you inadvertently create suffering for yourself.
The way forward is to finally stop living your old cycle.
The way forward is to do whatever it is that you've been ignoring, running from, hiding from, & procrastinating about.
"And the day came, when to risk to remain tight in a bud was greater than the risk it took to blossom." - Anaïs Nin
I assure you that you are not alone in your suffering. All humans go through their own version of this.
Only you can do the work required to free yourself, but you don't have to do it alone. I can help you.
If you haven't already scheduled a meeting with me, or if you have any questions or comments, please schedule a Clarity Call or message me on WhatsApp or send me an email.
I'm grateful that you're here & I'm excited for your growth. Whether you vibe with me or with someone else, please heed the message of your pain - you don't have to run anymore. Lean into your growth & heal your suffering.